Happiness
is just a choice!
It seriously seemed like 3 days of class in one!
Today in class Dain was talking about how he had been looking for a wrongness in his world that he would need to change to get happy again and how he had actually done that since being a kid
Thats when it hit me
WOW
I had done that so much myself!
So I got into a conversation with him about this -
When I was a kid I would be in a great space of happiness & expansion
and then I would start to look for that problem or heaviness that I needed to deal with
A certain extent of happiness & expansion seemed a wrongness, there was only so happy or expanded I was really allowed to be or enjoy
So the looking for a problem
The lie that diminishing me was more right than the expansion of me
Was like a place that I nearly 'had' to go to...
Dain pointed out how much this was also cultural
And yeah...which place on earth, which country, which culture actually does support & encourage happiness - the true out of control joy of being ?!
Now I am not somebody who goes so much into the past nor into stories
And believe you me, there is so much more happiness, ease, space and ME available to me since I started Access
But this conversation really opened up an awareness on a whole different level
Not the 'usual' conversation about how being so happy, being 'too' happy, 'too' much, 'too' anything was judged
No
It touched a whole new level of awareness and opened up a whole new space for me about my choice around Happiness
I realized how when I reached a certain space of happiness, the energetic alarm bells would start to ring and I would have to retreat into the smallness of me!
Recognizing I do not do that anymore was one thing
(If you do not recognize & acknowledge it, you cannot totally receive it, nor can you have more of it!)
And that whenever I still do that -- I really DO have another choice available
Was somehow Huge
Whoaaa!!!
This awareness opened up a whole new space of CHOICE in my world
One where MY choice has nothing to do with what others choose
Has nothing to do with what people think about my choice
And where my daily question
What have I not yet been willing to be that I could choose to be today?
Starts to reveal itself in yet another whole new other way!
SO
In case any of this reads for you
In case any of this resonates for you
Ask yourself :
Have you decided that there are certain problems you need to find & solve after which only then you can be happy?
And if so -
Are you willing to let all of that go >
Your commitments to finding these problems...?
Your commitments to solving them...?
Your commitments that keep you in the smallest version of you...?
For me it is opening up yet another great space where I can be ME
Regardless of what anybody might be choosing
And it strengthens the clarity I have been receiving over the past period:
Where I choose to follow my joy
Where I choose to do what makes my heart skip a beat
Not necessarily only fun stuff
But stuff that will be creating joy & expansion of my life, in my world & in my future
And now
I can sense the alarm bells are getting softer
And its just up to me to not let them stop me anymore
Not let them influence me anymore
And allow myself to make the music of Happiness be louder than the Siren of Limitations
Adoring you,
Kalpana