What makes me tick?
Personality, emotions, and social/emotional intelligence
My personality is more than anything always looking for the hint of good in even the worst of people and events, and searching for ways to make things better. While I'm perceived as calm, reserved, or even shy, I also have an inner flame and passion that can truly shine. Sadly, the feeling of being misunderstood is very high in my personality - but when I find like-minded people to spend my time with, the harmony I feel will transforms into a fountain of joy and inspiration. I will focus my attention on just a few people, a single worthy cause - spread too thinly, I'll run out of energy, and even become dejected and overwhelmed by all the bad in the world that they can’t fix. If I'm not careful, I can lose myself in my quest for good and neglect the day-to-day upkeep that life demands. I often drift into deep thought, enjoying contemplating the hypothetical and the philosophical more than any other personality type. At times, I may start to lose touch, withdrawing into "hermit mode", and it can take a great deal of energy from their friends or partner to bring me back to the real world. Luckily, like the flowers in spring, my affection, creativity, altruism and idealism will always come back, rewarding myself and those me love perhaps not with logic and utility, but with a world view that inspires compassion, kindness and beauty wherever I go.
I'm a very emotional person. I panic if I have to walk through an area I don’t think is safe. For example, school makes me feel uneasy in the form that I feel as if I'm being judged. Another big contribution in my emotion is the sense when I feel euphoric when things go my way, but yet I am floored by grief and ashamed if I make a mistake. I am used to not being able to get your words out when nervous. For example, when putting together presenting my project in Psychology over motivation, it was difficult to find the words to explain my topic. I had to keep notecards in my hands to keep key terms and sentences in my head. When I'm happy my heart beats wildly; love makes me feel like I could fly, and anger can make me explode. Extreme behavior is a way of expressing myself. I am hypersensitive. Violence, uneasiness or shrieks can be expected from me when emotion takes over. This self-protective mechanism is dictated by my personal history and the experiences I've had in the past. My emotions are very unpredictable in the sense that even I don't know when the next moment I will feel euphoric is. I love to be happy, but it seems to become more and more difficult each day.
My social/emotional intelligence.
I believe my emotional intelligence is my strongest trait. I'm very sensitive to others individual's needs. I'm also an amazing listener. In my opinion, I allow others to finish their venting or other ideas before adding in my own anecdotes. I'm pretty good at reading others social cues; therefore, blending in. I know a faux pas before someone tries to commit one. I do not criticize easily. I seem to put words in a way that will not disappoint others. I'm less judgmental than many other people. Also, I tend to not show it even when being judgmental. I have a soothing presence. I nearly always know how to comfort someone in need. I'm great at negotiating or compromising; therefore, what I deem important I get but I also do not deny someone when what others find is important to them. I'm fairly good at abating conflicts, so I am a good buffer in a clash of egos between two friends. I try to accommodate as many people as I can with my actions or views. I may have a strong view, but I'm rarely a pushover. I try to avoid and abate conflicts as much as I can. I believe my emotional intelligence is extremely high.