Hi Sara

You look beautiful today

Let me explain.

You've stumbled upon this! Yay! You've opened up the first envelope already. This is going to be a bumpy ride, but I always want you to refer back to this page when you need it, okay? Bookmark it. This is here whenever you need it, this is here when I can't be there. This is me. I have typed these words. I'm sitting here, typing these words, and as you read this, I'm living my life in Elma. I'm breathing, I'm blinking, I'm talking and so are you. We're both two humans living in two separate spaces, but know that I'm here and I've thought about you a lot. Check all this out when you want to remember. Know that I love you and I miss you. Know that I'm always here. Call me. Text me. Write me (I LOVE MAIL). Okay?
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Remember when...

"You deserve every single thing in this world. You deserve happiness and love and to find the person you want to find. I'm so glad thatI could go to you first when I started to sob after the Cup Song, simply because I'm gonna miss seeing you every single day after school and walking around and being stupid. I'm gonna miss doing idiotic things with you and getting caught and just laughing until our stomachs are hurting. I'm gonna miss hearing you sing Landslide and hearing you sing little songs and hearing you talk. I'm gonna miss smelling you and walking with you and everything, just everything. I'm gonna miss texting you and talking to you and sending you lyrics and crying with you and hugging you and having you cry on my shoulder and everything and I'm in love with you and everything you are. I'm starting to cry a lot now so I have to stop but I want to sit next to you and have Sean sit next to you as well because I was thinking about it and I want to be your best friend and I want him to be your boyfriend so we can do cute things like decorate your locker and surprise you and just all be best friends and I'm in love with you. You're the love of my life, I will never forget you. Ever."

So yeah, that was a text I sent you on May 31st, after Cabaret, and all of it still holds true. But I have more to say. Some of this I wrote during the school year, some of it I'm writing a day before your grad party, but I mean every word I say.

I'm going to miss you when you go to college. Hell, I already miss you. I'm not sure how I'm going to handle not seeing you in the halls or talking to you on a daily basis or staying up late to text you or not being in the same place with you between 7:30 and 2:40. I don't know how I'm going to handle just texting you and not actually seeing you or smelling you or watching you smile or do any of your hand motions that I adore. I don't know how I'm going to handle not smiling snarkily (is that a word) at you in the hallways or hugging you or just looking at you and you knowing exactly what's going on. I can't fathom it, honestly I can't. But you tell me to not think about the future so much, so I'll try to just live in the present. And I don't want you to "lose it", because then I'll lose it. I don't want anything to be lost... Which is why I made this. So you always have somewhere to go when you miss me, when you want to contact me, or when you need to remember who I am and what we were.

Because our friendship is beautiful and crazy and ridiculous but everything makes sense when I'm with you. I see you and I smile because you just instantly brighten my day. Your face in the hallways was like a beacon of light, shining so bright through all of the ordinary people passing you.

Everything you do is extraordinary, and our friendship is so. We are both so connected somehow, and so alike, and I never want that aspect to change. But I want other things to change for you. You need some change. You need college and a different town and new friends and to begin your life.

I honestly can't wait until you return to Buffalo completely new. It's your time to go out there and show the world what you've got, because what you've got is nothing I can put into words. You are a truly outstanding human being, Sara. Truly. Honestly. Positively. Absolutely. Scout's honor! You're just above and beyond the expectations of any person who meets you.

You simply shine. Never doubt that, Sara. Never.

Nevermind I'll find someone like you

I wish nothing but the best for you

Don't forget me, I beg,

I remember you said

Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes you move on to college and find a kickass career and some amazing friends and a fucking awesome guy and a coming-down-with-murder college degree and that's cool too I guess I mean personally I would choose the latter option over the former but that's just me so

A Quote

“Even though you may want to move forward in your life, you may have one foot on the brakes. In order to be free, we must learn how to let go. Release the hurt. Release the fear. Refuse to entertain your old pain. The energy it takes to hang onto the past is holding you back from a new life. What is it you would let go of today?” -Mary Manin Morissey

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