Hi Sara
You look beautiful today
Let me explain.
Senior Day
Heaven Can Wait
Cabaret
Remember when...
So yeah, that was a text I sent you on May 31st, after Cabaret, and all of it still holds true. But I have more to say. Some of this I wrote during the school year, some of it I'm writing a day before your grad party, but I mean every word I say.
I'm going to miss you when you go to college. Hell, I already miss you. I'm not sure how I'm going to handle not seeing you in the halls or talking to you on a daily basis or staying up late to text you or not being in the same place with you between 7:30 and 2:40. I don't know how I'm going to handle just texting you and not actually seeing you or smelling you or watching you smile or do any of your hand motions that I adore. I don't know how I'm going to handle not smiling snarkily (is that a word) at you in the hallways or hugging you or just looking at you and you knowing exactly what's going on. I can't fathom it, honestly I can't. But you tell me to not think about the future so much, so I'll try to just live in the present. And I don't want you to "lose it", because then I'll lose it. I don't want anything to be lost... Which is why I made this. So you always have somewhere to go when you miss me, when you want to contact me, or when you need to remember who I am and what we were.
Because our friendship is beautiful and crazy and ridiculous but everything makes sense when I'm with you. I see you and I smile because you just instantly brighten my day. Your face in the hallways was like a beacon of light, shining so bright through all of the ordinary people passing you.
Everything you do is extraordinary, and our friendship is so. We are both so connected somehow, and so alike, and I never want that aspect to change. But I want other things to change for you. You need some change. You need college and a different town and new friends and to begin your life.
I honestly can't wait until you return to Buffalo completely new. It's your time to go out there and show the world what you've got, because what you've got is nothing I can put into words. You are a truly outstanding human being, Sara. Truly. Honestly. Positively. Absolutely. Scout's honor! You're just above and beyond the expectations of any person who meets you.
You simply shine. Never doubt that, Sara. Never.
Nevermind I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you
Don't forget me, I beg,
I remember you said
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes you move on to college and find a kickass career and some amazing friends and a fucking awesome guy and a coming-down-with-murder college degree and that's cool too I guess I mean personally I would choose the latter option over the former but that's just me so
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Email: amandampop@hotmail.com
Location: 110 Clark Court, Elma Center, Elma, NY
Phone: (716) 655-4653
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