What Makes Me Tick?
Personality, Emotions, and Social/Emotional Intelligence
I rescued a two year old German/Australian Shepard Blue Healer mix named Maryann five years ago. Due to my loving nature, she's been my best friend through everything.
Once I moved here, I was finally able to fulfill my lifelong dream of owning my own horse, A twelve year old Arabian named Kunta Kinta or Toby for short.
Moving from Owensboro Kentucky to Bardstown impacted my social tendencies by causing me to become more outgoing in order to successfully assimilate.
What Makes Me Tick?
I feel my personality is based on both nature and nurture. I was nurtured by my mother after my dad left when I was three, and I therefore show more of her personality. I watched her react strongly to hard situations and as a result, I also handle things radically at times. This to me is more of my "rigid white" personality. However, I show signs of a more laid back and reckless teenager. I attribute this to my dad's impact on my life and possibly the genes he gave me. This reckless tendency is my "jet-black" personality.
I have always been very sweet in nature and have strong compassion for all furry creatures. Yes, even possums and raccoons who I've been known to feed in winter. I feel nature is 100% to blame for my compassion towards animals. I have rescued stray cats, dogs, and even a baby squirrel over the years. Not to mention the two chipmunks and a field mouse I saved from the furious rescued kitten, Twinkie.
I am very sweet to others, compassionate with it comes to helping others, and very open to new ideas. These are characteristics I believe are purely my own and originate from nature. However, I can also be very closed in, unwilling to open up to others and at times down right hateful. I consider these emotions to be nurture, since I grew up feeling that others wanted nothing more than to hurt me.
The main parts of my emotions being sadness, happiness, and stress tend to be extremes of both my parents. I know both of them battle some variation of depression and bi-polar disorder. The extremes of those basic three emotions, on the other hand, are all nature. I have always been stressed out since I can remember. For example, I once had a mental break down in first grade due to a spelling test I had been studying for.
My Social/Emotional Intelligence
I consider my social and emotional intelligence to be strictly nurture. I was raised by a single mother, so I knew very quickly I had to be more mature and more perfect in order to keep my mom's life together. Yes, I know its irrational and no, my mother never verbally put that much pressure on me. I did it all myself because I honestly felt I had to. I keep myself at a high stress level 24/7 because I learned by watching other adults in my life that stress got things done. AS a result, I never turn off my imaginary stress switch.
At times, I am very good at regulating myself while at other times, I am 100% of the rails of my roller coaster. These are times when I feel even more stress from my mom. I usually try to regulate through these times by talking to others, but since I tend to joke around a lot, most people can't see the stress eating away at me.
The Importance of Understanding Myself. My Emotions and My Social/Emotional Intelligence
For my future story, I need to be able to determine where I'm going and how I'm going to get there. "Failing to prepare is preparing to fail." Emotional and social intelligence will help me prepare for my future in college by allowing me to regulate my emotions even under difficult times.
The true important, to me, is being able to understand my state of mind and how it's going to effect the others around me. By understanding myself, I will be able to fulfill my potential as a guidance counselor, leader, and friend.