6 Impossible Things!
1. Stop self-harm... and suicides.
Also, I don't just want to prevent suicide. I want to prevent self harm as well. It's going to be a tough job, but as I said, if I can stop one or two people from doing it, that would be huge. Self harm is like a escape for many people - their only escape - and I want them to feel that there are others out there. From "experience.." things like going out for a walk, using pen instead of a razor and listening to music doesn't necessarily help for long. It can work for the first few times, but after that it gets old. I want to help people overcome the need to self harm in any sort of way.
I know how hard it would be for people to hear "it gets better", because after the first few times of hearing that, the positive effect wears off. I want to help people overcome those things and be happy again. :)
2. Stand up to certain people.
It's going to be hard to, because
1) I live with one.
2) My mum won't ditch one.
3) One may be my mum.
4) One if the teacher of my favorite subject.
A lot of the time I have to stay silent about it and not let them get to me, but the act is starting to wear through and I feel the need to do something about it.
3. Get a job.
1) I have more funds for myself
2) I may give some of those funds to Mum.
Also, then I will seem to have more responsibility in my mums eyes, and she might actually start paying attention to me.
Plus, people will stop calling me lazy, right?
4. Stop being so depressed all the time.
DON'T SEND ME TO THE COUNSELOR I HATE HER.
Anyway, I want to stop being so depressed or dark because I don't want to drag down people around or create tension at home.
5. Have a somewhat career in performing arts.
Even if I don't get very far, I want to still be able to join small acting groups in whatever city I end up living in (NOT CANBERRA).
6. Convince my mother I don't care about religion.
My mum won't stop pressuring me to come to Church with her and I really don't want to. I've had to get her away so much to having to say that I'm a Satanist. HAHAH no.
It's not like I don't respect for it, it's just I don't feel the need to have a religion.
Did I mention I was baptized as a Catholic? :(
But seriously, she won't stop pestering me. I need her to get through her head that I don't really care and no, I don't want to go to Church.