I'm sorry

Sorry if this note is rushed.

To my family

To mom and dad: I love you both and though I've never been the perfect son and we've never gotten along fully I hope that you understand that I appretiate everything you have both done for me throughout my life.

To sam: I love you and you've been the best brother i could ever ask for. Please don't go down my path and make good decisions. I've had your back all my life and I'm scared for you, you've been in a bad place and no one knows and I don't want you ending up like me.

To granny: I love you and you've always been there for me and you've been close to me my whole life and I'm sorry for this. I wish i could be different and appease to everyone but i cant, I hope one day you'll understand what I've done.

To the rest of my family: I'm sorry that I'm not being specific to any of you right now. I love every single one of you and I'm sorry for everything I'm putting you through with doing this. Je vous aime tous puis je m'excuse pour ce cauchemar. I'm sorry for all that i've done and I'm sorry for being a disapointment.

To Katie

I love you more than anyone and I'm sorry for what I've done. All the shit i put you through. Just know that to me you'll always be perfect and there hasn't been a day passing since i met you that I haven't loved you. Please don't think you have anything to do with this, life is just too much for me to handle and I'm not cut out for living. Thank you for always being by my side. I'll never forget the first time i saw you at skreamers. You've always been perfect. Stay rad you perfect lil' peach. I hope one day you can recover from this and I'm sorry for all the damage this is causing. I just can't see any other way for me. I love you.

To my squad.

I'm sorry for this and I'm sorry for being shit to you all. I love the lot of you as family and I hope one day you'll all forgive me. Thank you for everything, meeting you all and being along side you lot has been a blast and I'm greatful for everything.

To the rest of my friends

I'm sorry for regardin you all under a vast umbrella but my emotional energy is slim to none but just know that I love you all, that I'm sorry for all the damage done and that i hope you all prosper. Every one of you were my friends because you were unique and special people that I appretiate whole-heartedly.
Life just doesn't seem cut out for me. I've tried coping this last few years and I've been on a thin line trying to stay alove for other people but it's been so hard coping with my own thoughts and I don't see the light anymore. I hope that eventually the damage from this can be coped with. I love you all. Just know this is no one's fault but my own.