Suzanne's Diary for Nicholas
By James Patterson
Novel- Anna McPherson
Matt gave this diary to Kate to explain why he was so distant with her. "Katie slipped down farther into the water, and found herself thinking back to the day she had received the diary—July 19.(pg. 4)." She understood more than ever about why he was acting the way he was acting. Suzanne was a wonderful mother the little time she had him, putting the baby first. She had this baby and basically sacrificed herself in order to not kill this child and give Matt a son. Matt lost two precious parts of his life. Kate was actually pregnant with Matt’s baby during the period she was reading this diary and gave Matt a second chance at a family, which he wanted very badly. So Kate became a mother herself and gave that chance to Matt, which helped fill the loss of what he used to have. Suzanne as a mother, even though it wasn’t for long, showed so much sacrifice and love by putting her son first. This novel was emotional and heartbreaking, but made Suzanne a great example of a mother despite her health.
Matt's Only Excerpt
"Hello, my sweet Nicholas, it's Daddy. I have to write this. I can't think of anything now, except that I have to talk to you. But this is so hard, little boy. This is the hardest thing I've ever had to do. I let her leave, I didn't stop her. I didn't even go to her, I didn't even kiss her goodbye, Nicky. Because, you see, my sweet boy, Mommy had a heart attack on the way into town. Her car went through the guardrail at the cove. The doctor said she died before the crash, that she didn't feel any pain. I want to believe him. I wind up your music box and it begins to play. I reach into your crib and touch your sweet cheek. I reach into your crib and place an index finger into each of your little hands and watch you squeeze. You're very strong. But you're not in your crib, are you? Because you went with Mommy that day. She strapped you into your carseat and drove you to town. She wanted you to be the first to see your photographs."