I am!

By John Clare

I Am

I am—yet what I am none cares or knows;

My friends forsake me like a memory lost:

I am the self-consumer of my woes—

They rise and vanish in oblivious host,

Like shadows in love’s frenzied stifled throes

And yet I am, and live—like vapours tossed

Into the nothingness of scorn and noise,

Into the living sea of waking dreams,

Where there is neither sense of life or joys,

But the vast shipwreck of my life’s esteems;

Even the dearest that I loved the best

Are strange—nay, rather, stranger than the rest.

I long for scenes where man hath never trod

A place where woman never smiled or wept

There to abide with my Creator, God,

And sleep as I in childhood sweetly slept,

Untroubling and untroubled where I lie

The grass below—above the vaulted sky.

Main Idea

In the poem, I am, john first tells how his present is and how he has friends but they don't know who he really is. He represents himself and shows what his situation is and what he's been through. His depression would come and go and he would have to live with his feelings.

He then continues to say he is scared about his future because he doesn't see any joy in what life has to offer and no happiness and the people he loves so dearly can't understand his feelings.

At the end john tells how he wishes the world was. Full of happiness and nobody wept or was saddened. A place where all where equal to God and wishes to sleep with no burdens on his shoulders, like a child.

Why I Chose this poem?

I chose this poem because it really explains how a lot of people and especially me think about how my future is going to be. We as children ran freely and had never worried because we thought we where invincible and now we have grown up and seen the struggles of life and we keep telling ourselves that we will be better but we never think what if we aren't. We are scared to enter the real world because we don't know where to start or how to do these things that our parents would do for us. We dream of how we want our futures to be and the only thing stoping us from reaching our dream is our mind.

Stop this train by john mayer

No I'm not color blind
I know the world is black and white
Try to keep an open mind but...
I just can't sleep on this tonight
Stop this train I want to get off and go home again
I can't take the speed it's moving in
I know I can't
But honestly won't someone stop this train

Don't know how else to say it, don't want to see my parents go
One generation's length away
From fighting life out on my own

Stop this train
I want to get off and go home again
I can't take the speed it's moving in
I know I can't but honestly won't someone stop this train

So scared of getting older
I'm only good at being young
So I play the numbers game to find away to say that life has just begun
Had a talk with my old man
Said help me understand
He said turn 68, you'll renegotiate
Don't stop this train
Don't for a minute change the place you're in
Don't think I couldn't ever understand
I tried my hand
John, honestly we'll never stop this train

See once in a while when it's good
It'll feel like it should
And they're all still around
And you're still safe and sound
And you don't miss a thing
'til you cry when you're driving away in the dark.

Singing stop this train I want to get off and go home again
I can't take this speed it's moving in
I know I can't
Cause now I see I'll never stop this train

Scared for the future

Living in today's sorrow and thinking of tomorrow

My life dreams and goals seem to fade away

My conscience is telling me its okay

But its hard to believe when there nothing but sorrow

I cant see anything but these thoughts that cloud me

Why cant you just help me.